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So today offically sucks, it has been a year since my horse was murder. I really fucken hate dealing with other people when I'm in a foul mood, and you have to play that cheesy ass friendly smile so everyone doesn't think you're grumpy as fuck. Not besides that I find out that one of my acquastances' g/f is cheating on him. I can not state  how much I hate humans, yes including myself, and how I loath having to deal with the same shit over and over again. We all have conformed in one way or another. Naturally we don't need clothes, or expenses houses, but yet we have all this extra bullshit that just weighs us down. Okay, done with rant be ba

So, sitting here wondering why I'm waiting for class to start even though I really wish I'm not here. I hate being surrounded by so many people and how loud they can fucken get. My i-pod trys to over play the music of everyone's voices but it seems to not work. Everyone knows everyone and I don't know anyone but Nicole and she's off you know in class. But I can deal and all I'm wish is that Travis was here with me, doing the same thing. But as Dance Gavin Dance says "You can do this on your own." This is what growning up is supposed to be all about going out on your own and doing activites that you really don't want to be doing. Ah shit, why